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angelchildr at 09:52am on 10/07/2009
angelchildr at 09:52am on 10/07/2009Okay! Even though I get so paranoid about a part of these sorts of things when I read them, I'm doing it myself. So there. Stolen from my flist. Done over two days.
Ten Things You Wish You Could Say To Ten Different People Right Now
(I totally cheated on this. There's a repeat, and a bunch aren't on my flist.)
01. I love you.
02. I'm sad/angry that this is the friendship that ended up messed up. And I want to fix it, but I don't know how at this point.
03. It's so very awkward, but I have a crush on you. It's not something I'd ever admit to or ever act on. I'm sorry. It's easy to crush on you. You're sort of ridiculously adorable.
04. Your socks make me laugh today. :-D
05. I never know if you want me around or not.
06. No, really. I love you.
07. Seriously?! It didn't occur to you or anyone else to check for that shit before taking/posting a picture? *epic facepalm*
08. Thank you both for supporting me through all of this. You're not going to see this, but thank you. For everything.
09. Thank you for the Smarties. :-D You're a nice person to sit by.
10. I'm so very worried about you right now, even though I haven't really said much, and I tend to try to be cheerful when I've spoken with you. But I worry.
10b. I'm worried about you too, and how you're handling things. Worry worry worry.
Nine Things About Yourself
(Is this things that people don't know, or just things in general? Well, I know I've said some of this before, but...)
01. I have a horribly wobbly sense of self-esteem. Some days it's great (for me), some days it's really really not. I'm trying to do my best at faking it.
02. I can't see out of one eye. It's pretty hard to tell just by looking at me. This means I have crap-tastic peripheral vision on one side, and I can't see in 3D. Sort of ironic that I'm going into art. :-D No one in the art department knows yet how bad my vision actually is. (Relatedly, *losing* the rest of my vision is something that I'm intensely worried about...) This is also why I have a major eye squick.
03. My biological daughter is turning 9 years old this year. Yes, that does make me feel ancient, thanks for asking. :-P She lives with her parents in Wisconsin. I just recently got into contact with them again, and got a bunch of newish pictures. I keep slacking on getting one scanned in for you all. *facepalm*
04. I fall into crushes with incredible ease and quite a bit of intensity, but I know that none of those will ever go anywhere, because they're just daydreams. Love, by the way, is a lot harder for me to deal with.
05. I LIKE ART! :-D I would much rather do art-related things than non-art-related things. Por ejemplo: We were in Munich one year during Oktoberfest. Did we go to Oktoberfest? No, we did not. We went... to an art museum. :-D
06. I don't have a problem being on my own. In fact, I enjoy it. I need "recharge" time alone. I like going places by myself too (movies, out to eat, shopping, even concerts, etc.). I don't have a problem with it like a lot of people do. I think it comes from a time in my life where I didn't *have* anyone to do things with, and so if I wanted to do things, I had to go alone. And I stubbornly wanted to do things. So...
07. For as much as I seem to share about my personal life, there's still big chunks of stuff that people don't know. Especially people that I don't know that well. I find it awkward to just drop really personal info a lot of the time. Also, I know that some of it is stuff that would probably make people look at me differently (especially real-life people). I think there's sections of my past that would read like some crazy melodramatic soap opera.
08. I'm a worrier. I worry about so much stuff. Sometimes I make myself ill with it, if I worry about too many things too much. Yes, it's enough that I've been diagnosed to have an actual anxiety problem (on top of some of my other problems *laughs*). On the other hand, it's not THAT bad (in my opinion) because I'm able to (mostly) not let it affect my everyday life.
09. I have an intensely difficult time choosing a "favorite" anything. :-D
Eight Ways to Win Your Heart
(I'm not sure my heart is winnable? Oh well. I'll just list things I like in people.)
01. Have a good sense of humor! I know, I know... people say this all the time, but seriously? If I can't laugh with you, it's not going to work. Luckily, I have a pretty broad sense of what I consider funny.
02. Be passionate about something artistic. Art, Music, Writing, etc. By the way? Passionate does not equal jerk-facey. Don't be a pretentious asshole about it. Also? Must be willing to accompany me to shows, (rock) concerts, plays, museums... Again, I have broad tastes. I used to go to the symphony all the time and the next week be on barrier for a band like My Chem. Please keep up. ;-)
03. Eating. Okay, that sounds bizarre, but I like to eat. I like to sit and talk while I eat, especially if I haven't seen someone for a long while.
04. Know when to leave me alone. Like I said before, I don't always want to be around other people. Sometimes I do, though! Unfortunately, I know that it's really hard to know the difference with me. Sigh.
05. Enjoy books. If you really can't stand books, at least enjoy learning things. A stagnant brain is a dead brain. :-( And that's sad.
06. Humor me. Which is totally different than #1! Here's the thing. I'm a giant dork. There are things that I love and get really into (for example, bands and weird art history stuff and trivia). There are things that make me giggle like an idiot (for an example, please go here - makes me laugh every single time). If I know that you're not as keen on something as I am, I'll TRY to tone it down, but you have to let me dork about it too.
07. Adore my car. Oh, so very shallow. But TinyCar is the best car ever! And you must show the proper respect for it! :-D
08. Be awesome. Okay, so I totally ran out of things. I'm doing this at work, what do you expect? :-D
Seven Things That Cross Your Mind A Lot
(A mostly current list that is entirely NOT inclusive)
01. Senior Sem.
02. Wow, he/she is cute.
03. Co-writing plots and characters.
04. Is my shirt clinging weirdly to my belly? Is my hair sticking up? Do I need to reapply my lipstick? Is there something in my teeth? Is there something in my NOSE?
05. Money, loans, bills, money, bills, money, should I buy that, should I have bought that, money, tuition, money, can I afford grad school if I get in, money.
06. What would happen if I died? What would people do? What would they think? What would happen to my stuff? How much of an impact would it make?
07. I should be art-ing.
(Yes, I love that there's no Six here.)
Five Turn-Offs
01. BEING A JERKFACE. >:-[
02. Complaining too much (which is totally hypocritical, because I complain like it's going out of style).
03. Thinking you're (literally) too cool for school. If you don't want to be there, then why are you?
04. Thinking that (and acting like) you know more than I do about something.
05. Telling me how I "have to" think.
Four Turn-Ons
(I'm guessing this is more physical/lusty (?) than the 'ways to win your heart' one, so...)
01. Self confidence and style. I think they usually go hand in hand. Can also be translated as: rocking your own look.
02. Musicians. God help me. *facepalm*
03. Expressive hands and eyes.
04. **to be determined per person** :-D
Three Smileys That Describe Your Life
01. O___________________o
02. :-|
03. :-D
Two Things You Wish You Never Did
(This one is so tricky, because everything I've done has led to where I am now, which is pretty good...)
01. I wish I'd never had a falling-out with my parents. Granted, it's healed and now we're super close, and probably wouldn't have been as good now if we didn't have those troubles, but I still wish it hadn't happened. I think all of us are to blame for it too. It wasn't an easy time for any of us.
02. I wish that I would've put more into school the first time around. I know that I apparently wasn't ready for it at the time, and that I had a bunch of other things going on in my head then. I really think that I needed to do a bunch of growing up and figuring myself out in order to be successful at college, but still. It would've been nice to get through while my parents were still paying so that I wouldn't have all the loans to eventually pay off.
One Confession
I'm still afraid that I'm going to screw everything up.
Ten Things You Wish You Could Say To Ten Different People Right Now
(I totally cheated on this. There's a repeat, and a bunch aren't on my flist.)
01. I love you.
02. I'm sad/angry that this is the friendship that ended up messed up. And I want to fix it, but I don't know how at this point.
03. It's so very awkward, but I have a crush on you. It's not something I'd ever admit to or ever act on. I'm sorry. It's easy to crush on you. You're sort of ridiculously adorable.
04. Your socks make me laugh today. :-D
05. I never know if you want me around or not.
06. No, really. I love you.
07. Seriously?! It didn't occur to you or anyone else to check for that shit before taking/posting a picture? *epic facepalm*
08. Thank you both for supporting me through all of this. You're not going to see this, but thank you. For everything.
09. Thank you for the Smarties. :-D You're a nice person to sit by.
10. I'm so very worried about you right now, even though I haven't really said much, and I tend to try to be cheerful when I've spoken with you. But I worry.
10b. I'm worried about you too, and how you're handling things. Worry worry worry.
Nine Things About Yourself
(Is this things that people don't know, or just things in general? Well, I know I've said some of this before, but...)
01. I have a horribly wobbly sense of self-esteem. Some days it's great (for me), some days it's really really not. I'm trying to do my best at faking it.
02. I can't see out of one eye. It's pretty hard to tell just by looking at me. This means I have crap-tastic peripheral vision on one side, and I can't see in 3D. Sort of ironic that I'm going into art. :-D No one in the art department knows yet how bad my vision actually is. (Relatedly, *losing* the rest of my vision is something that I'm intensely worried about...) This is also why I have a major eye squick.
03. My biological daughter is turning 9 years old this year. Yes, that does make me feel ancient, thanks for asking. :-P She lives with her parents in Wisconsin. I just recently got into contact with them again, and got a bunch of newish pictures. I keep slacking on getting one scanned in for you all. *facepalm*
04. I fall into crushes with incredible ease and quite a bit of intensity, but I know that none of those will ever go anywhere, because they're just daydreams. Love, by the way, is a lot harder for me to deal with.
05. I LIKE ART! :-D I would much rather do art-related things than non-art-related things. Por ejemplo: We were in Munich one year during Oktoberfest. Did we go to Oktoberfest? No, we did not. We went... to an art museum. :-D
06. I don't have a problem being on my own. In fact, I enjoy it. I need "recharge" time alone. I like going places by myself too (movies, out to eat, shopping, even concerts, etc.). I don't have a problem with it like a lot of people do. I think it comes from a time in my life where I didn't *have* anyone to do things with, and so if I wanted to do things, I had to go alone. And I stubbornly wanted to do things. So...
07. For as much as I seem to share about my personal life, there's still big chunks of stuff that people don't know. Especially people that I don't know that well. I find it awkward to just drop really personal info a lot of the time. Also, I know that some of it is stuff that would probably make people look at me differently (especially real-life people). I think there's sections of my past that would read like some crazy melodramatic soap opera.
08. I'm a worrier. I worry about so much stuff. Sometimes I make myself ill with it, if I worry about too many things too much. Yes, it's enough that I've been diagnosed to have an actual anxiety problem (on top of some of my other problems *laughs*). On the other hand, it's not THAT bad (in my opinion) because I'm able to (mostly) not let it affect my everyday life.
09. I have an intensely difficult time choosing a "favorite" anything. :-D
Eight Ways to Win Your Heart
(I'm not sure my heart is winnable? Oh well. I'll just list things I like in people.)
01. Have a good sense of humor! I know, I know... people say this all the time, but seriously? If I can't laugh with you, it's not going to work. Luckily, I have a pretty broad sense of what I consider funny.
02. Be passionate about something artistic. Art, Music, Writing, etc. By the way? Passionate does not equal jerk-facey. Don't be a pretentious asshole about it. Also? Must be willing to accompany me to shows, (rock) concerts, plays, museums... Again, I have broad tastes. I used to go to the symphony all the time and the next week be on barrier for a band like My Chem. Please keep up. ;-)
03. Eating. Okay, that sounds bizarre, but I like to eat. I like to sit and talk while I eat, especially if I haven't seen someone for a long while.
04. Know when to leave me alone. Like I said before, I don't always want to be around other people. Sometimes I do, though! Unfortunately, I know that it's really hard to know the difference with me. Sigh.
05. Enjoy books. If you really can't stand books, at least enjoy learning things. A stagnant brain is a dead brain. :-( And that's sad.
06. Humor me. Which is totally different than #1! Here's the thing. I'm a giant dork. There are things that I love and get really into (for example, bands and weird art history stuff and trivia). There are things that make me giggle like an idiot (for an example, please go here - makes me laugh every single time). If I know that you're not as keen on something as I am, I'll TRY to tone it down, but you have to let me dork about it too.
07. Adore my car. Oh, so very shallow. But TinyCar is the best car ever! And you must show the proper respect for it! :-D
08. Be awesome. Okay, so I totally ran out of things. I'm doing this at work, what do you expect? :-D
Seven Things That Cross Your Mind A Lot
(A mostly current list that is entirely NOT inclusive)
01. Senior Sem.
02. Wow, he/she is cute.
03. Co-writing plots and characters.
04. Is my shirt clinging weirdly to my belly? Is my hair sticking up? Do I need to reapply my lipstick? Is there something in my teeth? Is there something in my NOSE?
05. Money, loans, bills, money, bills, money, should I buy that, should I have bought that, money, tuition, money, can I afford grad school if I get in, money.
06. What would happen if I died? What would people do? What would they think? What would happen to my stuff? How much of an impact would it make?
07. I should be art-ing.
(Yes, I love that there's no Six here.)
Five Turn-Offs
01. BEING A JERKFACE. >:-[
02. Complaining too much (which is totally hypocritical, because I complain like it's going out of style).
03. Thinking you're (literally) too cool for school. If you don't want to be there, then why are you?
04. Thinking that (and acting like) you know more than I do about something.
05. Telling me how I "have to" think.
Four Turn-Ons
(I'm guessing this is more physical/lusty (?) than the 'ways to win your heart' one, so...)
01. Self confidence and style. I think they usually go hand in hand. Can also be translated as: rocking your own look.
02. Musicians. God help me. *facepalm*
03. Expressive hands and eyes.
04. **to be determined per person** :-D
Three Smileys That Describe Your Life
01. O___________________o
02. :-|
03. :-D
Two Things You Wish You Never Did
(This one is so tricky, because everything I've done has led to where I am now, which is pretty good...)
01. I wish I'd never had a falling-out with my parents. Granted, it's healed and now we're super close, and probably wouldn't have been as good now if we didn't have those troubles, but I still wish it hadn't happened. I think all of us are to blame for it too. It wasn't an easy time for any of us.
02. I wish that I would've put more into school the first time around. I know that I apparently wasn't ready for it at the time, and that I had a bunch of other things going on in my head then. I really think that I needed to do a bunch of growing up and figuring myself out in order to be successful at college, but still. It would've been nice to get through while my parents were still paying so that I wouldn't have all the loans to eventually pay off.
One Confession
I'm still afraid that I'm going to screw everything up.
(no subject)
...If not, then...continue not worrying, and I will remain blissfully unaware of something being terribly wrong with our friendship, or something. LOL.
Yeah, I hate these ten things, unless it becomes an impetus to say whatever it is that you wanted to say to the people.
PS: TELL THE PERSON.
01. I have a horribly wobbly sense of self-esteem. Some days it's great (for me), some days it's really really not. I'm trying to do my best at faking it. Get better at having great days! You are awesome!
(I'm not sure my heart is winnable? Oh well. I'll just list things I like in people.) You could have just listed eight things about 01/06.
TinyCar is the best car ever! TinyCar IS the best car ever! It's the only two-door that I can get into without any trouble!
03. Co-writing plots and characters.
Paul: *grins*?
06. What would happen if I died? What would people do? What would they think? What would happen to my stuff? How much of an impact would it make?
I WOULD BE SAD FOREVER. THAT IS WHAT WOULD HAPPEN. (But I do this too. Or wonder who would find me, and how my other friends would find out...I think it's a vaguely obsessive compulsive thing, to be honest.)
I'm still afraid that I'm going to screw everything up.Pffft. You know that whole thing about self confidence being a turnon? You should try that! ;P
(no subject)
P.S. O_________________O
You could have just listed eight things about 01/06.
They kind of pertain...
TinyCar IS the best car ever!
IT IS! Thank you for acknowledging it. :-D
Paul: *grins*?
Jonas: *smiles, waves a bit*
You know that whole thing about self confidence being a turnon? You should try that!
It's not that easy! >:-[
(no subject)
PS: Don't make frog faces at me! Do it anyway!
Haha, fair enough.
You're very welcome!
Paul: *puts a hand up, grins*
Yeah, I know :| but I wish it was?